gracie's

Morning Watch

2011-12-23T14:15:00.004+08:00

It's been quite some time since i really sat in front of a Bible and read it, i admit.

It's nothing to be proud of. So yes. This morning i did. I had been greatly encouraged by the Saints from Germany and Switzerland. Seeing how much the loved the Lord, how much they thirsted for His Word really stirred up something in me. There they were, jet lagged and all, sitting still and listening to God's word. And what was i doing? Restless, Tweeting, Facebooking, Sleeping, finding basically every excuse in the book to not pay attention to whatever Brother John So had to share with us.

And then i read Philipp's blog.

He said, '6.40 Clock - "Good morning" to the most important Person said - by talking, reading and listening, by default under the mosquito net.'

Okay firstly, 6:40 in the morning, i'd still be sprawled under my sheets sleeping like a log. And there he was, under a mosquito net, reading the Bible. I sleep in a fully air-conditioned room and wake up at like 1pm and complain about my blocked nose, brush my teeth, eat my breakfast and then switch on the TV. No reading of His Word. Whereas he, far far away from his homeland, is reading His Word early in the morning. Maybe you might not be very impressed by all these, but i am. When i was in Cambodia, i struggle to even wake up at 7 in the morning. And when i do, i don't do my morning watch too. I just shower and get ready for the day, eat my breakfast and rush off to the Orphanages.

Okay so enough ranting about how impressed i was by them. And so yes, i read Genesis Chapter 1 today and i discovered something and would like to share with whomever is reading this. (:

So in Genesis 1:26 it says 'Then God said, "Let US make man in Our image, according to Our likeness; let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over the cattle, over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth." -NKJV

and so the study Bible says,

' In what ways are we made in God's image? God obviously did not create us like Himself because God has no physical body. Instead, we are reflections of God's glory. Some feel that our reason, creativity, speech, or self-determination is the image of God. More likely, it is our entire self that reflects the image of God. We will never be totally like God because He is our supreme Creator. But we do have the ability to reflect His character in our love, patience, forgiveness, kindness and faithfulness.

Knowing that we are made in God's image and thus share many of his characteristics provides a solid basis for self-worth. Human worth is not based on possessions, achievements, physical attractiveness, or public acclaim. Instead, it is based on being made in God's image. Because we bear God's image, we can feel positive about ourselves. Criticizing or downgrading ourselves is criticizing what God has made and the abilities he had given us. Knowing that you are a person of worth helps you love God, know him personally, and make a valuable contribution to those around you.'

So yes, i'd found this portion particularly intriguing and therefore felt that i should share it.

Pray that you spend your day with the Lord!

God bless.

BIRD-ZOOKA

2011-12-02T16:35:00.002+08:00

Alright man! I'm back!

Nobody reads this anymore. But that's what makes it perfect.

I'm not going to delete all my previous posts.

I don't see a need to.

It's been one hell of a year. The mad rush to understand, practice and apply math and chemistry.

The never ending stress that my art work isn't good enough, that it sucks, that everyone else's is better. That my english sucks. That my brain's memory space is not enough to fit all of Biology, Geography, History and all the other nonsensical things.

Also, everything i once held dear, fell apart. But that's another story.

Anyhoo, i'm glad it's all over.

Hopefully. Hopefully i don't have to repeat sec 4 all over again.

-cross fingers-

I don't really know what i'm posting this for.

The year's almost over. It hasn't been an eventful year. I've turned 16.

I've gotten the absolution i've been searching for the past 2 or 3 years.

So no more 'i miss you, come back to me' posts. It's over, it really is.

We remain best of friends.

And whoever said that Exs remain friends because it's either they were never in love or that they still love each other, i'm sure that person hasn't found his or her absolution yet.

(notice i've been using the word 'Absolution' quite a few times. I learnt it in English class. Thank you Mdm Prema!)

So yeah, back to my point.

We are still best of friends. He's moved on, found a girl he really loves. Someone that's beautiful and someone that shares the same interest as he does; soccer.

I will remain single for the time being till i find the person that God has prepared for me. Cliche as it sounds, it's something that i have decided on.

The past 9 relationships have made me realised that if it's not God given, it's not going to work.

Furthermore, I am, but 16 years old. I do not agree with my parents' view that one must remain single till blablabla happens. I'm sorry, i do not. But, i have decided on blablabla. That i will remain single till blablabla happens.

So yes. I'm not sure if i will continue blogging.

I'll be really busy starting 8th December this year.

So.. yeap.

Alright.

2011-04-25T22:30:00.002+08:00

Quick update before another hiatus again.

SO,

i've been busy.

Aiyarh no need to elaborate lah.

Busy means busy.

ANYWAY.

i wish i had larger eyes.

kthxbai.

2011-03-07T21:24:00.004+08:00

OH GOD HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN.

Haha, a week or two?

HEEEHEEE.

Have been procrastinating a lot recently.

But then again, i don't think anyone really tunes in to my blog like everyday.

if you do, then i'm sorry for the lack of posts.

Idk what to post about today uh.

Prolly about what's been going on lately?

well,

I'VE BEEN TO HELL AND BACK, FLEW TO THE MOON TO KILL SOME ZOMBIE ALIEN IDK WHAT YOU CALL THAT, RODE AND ASTEROID BACK TO EARTH, SWAM ACROSS THE OCEAN TO CATCH KILLER WHALE AND TUNNELED BACK TO SINGAPORE.

How's that for an interesting week?

HAAAAAAAAAAA, no lah.

I've been to school,

Taken part in the annual School Sport's Meet (my last one in chuachukang!)

HMMMMMMMMM.

went shopping with my brother,

saw two EXTREMELY VERY MELLY BELLY OMGLY SIAOLY WOWLY ULTRALY TALL MODELS.

they were like THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS tall.

with heels on they stand 2 meters tall.

while i'm......................

like that.

Saw them at Tangs, Orchard Road.

IN THE SUPER WOMAN SUIT

SEXY KKK.

OKAY I'M TURNING IN NOW.

GOODNIGHTZ.

SWEE DWEEMZ.

x x

2011-02-27T00:27:00.002+08:00

i hate my chatbox.

-.-

and i haven't blogged in a thousand years.

my apologies.

i've been..

busy.

Well anyway,

here's the story.

After Dinner at Donut Factory this evening,

we dropped by Spinelli for some coffee.

and the table beside us sat 3 male specimens.

apparently they were studying me and calling me butch.

LOL.

thanks ah.

I walked off.

Got onto the train,

and this middle-aged guy was studying me,

up, down, left, right, behind, in front.

Dear sir,

i'm female. You don't have to scrutinize me like that.

tilting your head all the way to the right to look at my ass and then back to the left to check if i've boobs.

like dude, seriously.

if you wanna do that, at least do it a little more discreetly.

thanks huh.

I'm sick and tired of people

telling me that i look like a guy,

people asking my mum what happened to me, what's up with that hairstyle, telling her that they think that she has a problem kid or smth.

tired of people calling my butch,

tired of girls staring at me when i step into the ladies,

tired of trying to make my hair grow longer, faster.

tired of all the insults,

tired of everything.

you don't have to tell me that i look like a guy.

i do realize.

so do me a favor and shut up.

i'm being kind enough to not slap your face when you say that.

you know how many people have already stopped me to tell me that?

so please stop being so ignorant, obnoxious, unthoughtful.

i have feelings too.

it's not nice of you to say that.

maybe i should turn anorexic or something.

then you guys will have something to talk about.

2011-02-15T18:34:00.001+08:00

This is beautiful.

A father seeing his 3 week old girl for the first time.

War has torn us apart.

Perspectives have poisoned us.

God bless America.

2011-02-08T19:28:00.001+08:00

I don't see much thrill in blogging anymore.

I'm much more active in Tumblr.

The pictures there express what i feel.

Better than me blogging and getting screwed by people for my language etc.

So if you're looking for me,

don't come here frequently anymore.

go to tumblr.

Thanks.

If you don't know my tumblr link,

Go to my facebook.

there's a link there.

thanks.

have a nice day.

2011-02-01T19:23:00.002+08:00

The Pretty Reckless - Make Me Wanna Die

2011-01-28T19:49:00.011+08:00

It's been days since i last blogged.

Okay,
gonna bomb you with ugly pictures today.
(:

I'm the one at the bottom left.

I'm the one in the middle, Beside shafirah and xiaoqi. Above Luke. Sec 1

Middle, no eyes.

Beside my sis.

Primary 6

Primary 6 and Sec 3

Sec 2 or 3.

Sec 2

Sec 3

Sec 3. Awesome hair.

Sec 3 Sports Day.

Sec 3 OBS - 5th June, Super sunburnt.

Church, sec 3, June, bottom right, with the geek specs.

Racial Harmony Day, sec 3, the one in blue.

Green contact lens. Sec 3

Sec 3, Hair buddies. Still are.

Sister's first pay, sec 3.

IMM outing with prefects, sec 3. Lol so chor lorh.

Alumni Dinner 2010, Prefect Duty, sec 3

Sec 3, December, Malaysia conference.

Malaysia conference, sec 3

December conference, sec 3

Cambodia trip, sec 3, december.

Cambodia trip, getting out of the roller coaster ride.

December, sec 3, End of Year Prefect's Camp.

December, sec 3, End of Year prefect's Camp.

Lol, idk if you can see the change. But yup.

Bet you vomited at the first few pictures.

Hahaha, but yeap,

Idk why my face like that at the last few pictures.

LOLLOLLOL.

So yup,

i didn't have short hair my entire life.

And i looked like shit till i got my contact lens and cut my hair.

okay i probably still look like shit.

hmmm...

okay whatever.

But yeah!

I don't even know why i posted this but i had fun scrolling through my pictures.

Going to Science Center's CSI Exhibition with the school tomorrow.

Really hope it's worth my time.

Love on the 28th.

2011-01-24T21:22:00.003+08:00

MONDAY BLUES.

Meh,
monday's awesome.
Because there's art.

And my idea's finally been accepted!
Apparently there's been some mis-com between Mr Low & I,
haha so yeah,
now that my idea's been accepted,
i'm right on track!
and we're starting our pencil studies tomorrow!
Jiayou jiayou!

2011-01-23T20:02:00.002+08:00

Okay,
so look, here's a baby!
and then,
read.
enlarge it if you can't see.

do help to reblog on tumblr,
or spread it around your blogs,
(:

2011-01-23T15:56:00.003+08:00

You Wouldn't Answer My Call - 2am

ANYWAYS,
it's been a long time.
Update on my friends in girls home,
their hair, according to my friend who met up with one of them,
is terribly ugly.
):
like bangz and ultra ugly bangz jiu shi le.
LOL.
18 more months.
JIAYOUJIAYOU!

(lol why do i sound like im gloating?)

lol im not.

Anyways these few day's been a blur.
very hectic and mad and just mad.
been mad at people,
people's been mad at me,
threw in the towel,
went out to slack,
reconciled.
that kinda thing yeah.
Prolly 'cos it's the stress of the year kicking in.
HAIYA.
SOT.

& this sms yesterday,
really demonstrates what a true friend is.
' Both has pros and cons. The old grace is goody two shoes that listens to my crap. The new grace is all evil and outgoing. Old grace have less friends. New grace has too many friends. I like the old grace tho. '
SEE.
TRUE FRIEND THAT STUCK BY ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN
AND IM BEING SUCH A BITCH BY IGNORING HER.
LOL.
sad.
but ya.
k
ya
i also dunno what i wanna say.

I hate asking my brother for his whereabouts.
He always answers like this.
>:(

so ya,
that a**hole always tells me he's in heaven. LOL SO HELPFUL!
but he's a great bro lah.
so vain also.
hahaha.
cuteeeee~~~

there's been ups and downs.
yeah.
sigh.
But then again, you can't keep staying at one point where you're always happy.
That's not right.
so yeah.

YEAH.
OKAY BAIBAI.
I VERY TIRED ALREADY.
LOL.

2011-01-19T21:57:00.003+08:00

2AM - You Wouldn't Answer My Calls

I'm feeling more and more demoralised everyday regarding my O level art piece.
I can't understand why other people, with simple ideas,
can get Mr Low's approval to continue.
I'm stuck here,
Staring at my mindmap and wondering where i went wrong.
WHERE?!
Is it too violent?
Is it too dark?
Is it too complex?
Argh. I can't seem to understand why.
Someone enlighten me please.
I haven't much time have i,
Next week's photo taking week already.
By now, i should have a concrete idea.
Everyone else's at like... 98%?
I'm still at 0%
URGH.

May be participating with my cousin (YANZO), the super imba artsy guy in the entire family working in some art company LOL i respect him so much.
I do realise that people view art students/anyone who lives and breathes art, differently.
Like, we're from another planet or smth.
We're weird, We're gay, that kinda thing,
y'know?
You gotta get that idea outta your head mate.
Where'd your laptop design come from?
Where'd your bag design come from?
Where'd all the beautiful things come from?
Design.
\m/
Okay so anyway,
YANZO, as i mentioned, has painted a postbox i think somewhere at town.
yes, the postbox is still there.
But, there's this minature thing,
I don't even know what to call it, lol.
Piggy bank or something? LOL.
Okay so anyways, You can purchase it at any post office.
Just ask for the 'Merlion Version' and that's his.

Do support him!

As mentioned, i guess,
i may be participating in a art exhibit with him.
So yeah,
It's kinda a happy painting/drawing that kinda thing and so yeah,
Do feel free to drop me any ideas on what you think is happy/ may be linked with happy.
Just go crazy with the thinking, that's how ideas come about, don't they?
Yeah!
Just drop me a text if you've any ideas aite!

so yeah,
i'm super glad there aren't any homework to be done today.
Gonna be an early night for me!

2011-01-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold

Today?
(N)

bye.

2011-01-16T16:33:00.002+08:00

On The Side Of Me - Corrine May

Yesterday didn't go really well.
Thus the quote of the day - Shit Happens.

alright so here's what happened.
First we met up at CCK MRT Station and moved off in search for a suitable block to do our first scene.
We spent approx 30 - 45 mins walking from cck - teck whye - cck - south view
in search for block 219.
'cause of the lighting and whatever, we moved quite a few times.
Filming for the first scene was not an easy feat.
Reason being,
Jaya and I were new to this whole Acting thing.
And the first scene was a ' couple fight ' scene.
then we acted till it was more like gang fight or smth.
Then ya, i'm the female lead,
so you know, in relationships, girls must be more gentle etcetcetc.
after reviewing the video,
i looked 10 times more aggressive than Jaya.
But then this is a ' couple fight ' scene,
what do you expect?
LOL.

And during the filming of the ' couple fight ' scene,
i kicked the tripod stand.
and it bent.
So much that it couldn't close / needs a lot of strength to keep.
So Ben Yeo and Jaya spent about 30 mins tryna fix it.
sorry guys.

So yeah, in total, that scene itself took about 2 plus hours.

Then we moved to the bus stop.
That scene went pretty smoothly.

Went to the interchange to film Jaya's part.
quite a few screw ups there too.
Not quite sure what happened.
But they took quite a long time to film that scene.

Then we went to City Hall.
First stop,
Fu Nan.
Ben purchased his camera stuff.
Jaya had lunch,
went into cold storage,
the person shelving the wine bottles dropped one of them.
Spilled wine looked like blood.
- shit happens -
then we went to Clarke Quay.

Tunnel scene.
Was setting up the camera kit etc,
when a lot a lot a lot of photographers walked through the tunnel too.
They kept stopping by and talking to us, one said,
' oh, you're filming? Have fun! '
he even gave us advice.
thus the conclusion,
Photographers are nice people.

Tunnel scene was easy.
Except for the fact that too many people kept walking through it,
so we couldn't film.
waited very long before the tunnel was empty and then we proceeded to film.
Spent about an hour at that scene.

River-side scene.
went smoothly.

Female lead ' balancing ' scene.
went rather smoothly.
except for the fact that i probably looked really weird climbing that thing in the middle of a bridge,
everyone was staring at me.
LOL.

hopped off for a quick break,
when i came back,
Jaya and Ben were desperately looking for the camera cap.
first thought
' damn it. '
cock up no. 2
Jaya went off to look for it.

didn't find it.
forget it.
Move on with life, shall we?

Scene @ river-side, female lead scene.
that was when i saw Clare!
Wow,
how long has it been?
5 years?
and know what?
She's the first person from Nanyang Primary that actually recognized me.
She smiled.
i was like.
OMFG YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
hahahha,
okay so back to topic.
scene went rather well.

walked back to the opposite side of the river for the guy scene,
saw a Caucasian woman.
Drunk and all,
then we heard glass shatter.
came from the restaurant nearby.
- shit happens -

Scene @ river-side. Male lead scene.
while the guys were filming,
i took the chance to rest my weary legs.
Hey, it's been a long day okay!?
they were filing halfway when it started to drizzle.
cock up no. 3
Grabbed all our stuff and made a mad dash to the restaurant just behind us for shelter.
Was quite surprised that the staff didn't mind us.
Apparently they were killing time watching us film.
Haha.

When the rain went down a little,
we went out to shoot a scene as quickly as possible.
then,
IT STARTED TO POUR.
We all protected the camera instead of ourselves.
HAHA,
was shivering real bad.
Lucky i brought another set of clothes and jacket.

this was when i received a text.
oh wait,
i forgot to mention,
i haven't changed,
i was sitting at the staircase of the restaurant,
listening to Kiss The Rain - Yiruma
and ' guarding ' the bags.
Okay so back to story.
I cried upon receiving the text.
yeah.
It was 4.42pm.
the day was finally getting better.

okay so i went to change and everything,
When i came back,
i was listening to music (again)
and then this guy came up to us as approached Ben and Jaya for a photography job.
How lucky!
and this,
was the second of the good things that happened.

uhmmm,
i think after that it was already 4 plus 5.
so we were tired and then we headed back to Funan to get another Camera cap.
yeah,
then we went home.

i was super exhausted.
LMAO.

Another round of filming the coming saturday,
20 percent left.

alright,
think i've said quite enough.

goodbye.

<3

2011-01-14T22:05:00.002+08:00

幸福由自己掌握。
我有错了。
我真的真的不想失去你。

Helping Jaya with a film for his DPA profiling tomorrow.
Fever already. Hope It won't worsen when tomorrow comes.
Long day Tomorrow.
Hope the clip turns out good. The script sounds good.
Maybe will post the video up on facebook when everything's done.

And sorry everyone who talks to me at night.
I've been really tired.
So I really really apologise if I offended any of you or seemed cold or whatever.
If any of you really have anything urgent,
please try to talk to me before 6.
Anything after that,
I'll so frustrated to answer properly or answer at all.
I apologize once again.
Work related, email me.
If any of you are just bored and want to find someone to chat with,
don't bother looking for me.
Thanks.

Sorry for what I said.
I really didn't mean it.
I really don't know why I said that..
Sorry..

2011-01-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

EXHAUSTED

2011-01-12T21:43:00.002+08:00

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

Haven't been posting in a while.
Well, i've been busy.

6-4.30 school,
4.30-6.30 stay in school to study/meeting, etcetcetc.
7-9 Tuition,
9-10 Home,
10-10.15 Dinner,
10.15 onwards, Shower + Study.
HAHA,
okay i don't even know why i'm telling you this. But ya, i don't have much time to post.
I have huge eye bags now. LOL.

And i haven't had much time to look for good music.
Urgh.
So please do update me if you've found any pls, k?

Life's been good.
Really good.

I just signed up on Form Spring and imma like.
What..? How the hell do i publicize this thing? LOL.

Jyeah,
Anyways i'm ultra tired alr.
LOL.
Mr Kong keep snapping his fingers at me because i look super tired.
And then after he snap his fingers he'll laugh.
LOL cute right!

Training was awesome.
Though my body hurts like mad now.
But i really really enjoyed it.

Although sometimes/maybe most of the time (LOL) we have nothing much to talk about,
I cherish every moment.
<3

2011-01-09T15:10:00.003+08:00

Perfect - Hedley

' I'm not alive if i'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something i said, or just my personality? '

i'm not in the mood to blog.
so bear with me.

O levels results out tomorrow.
Art Lesson tomorrow.
First official day of lessons for me.
I get to see him tomorrow.

Maybe yeah, i'm too selfish.
You don't get upset when you know what i've done with others.
But i get really upset just knowing whatever you've done.
i'm sorry,
i can't help it.
I get jealous.
i'm sorry.

08012011

2011-01-08T15:35:00.001+08:00

Orientation's officially ended. So yeah.Anways.Just found out today that another of my friends are going into girls home. okay fine I admit I don't really like her and stuff. But she was a person of my past. Do respect that. She was part of how i turned out. No matter how small or big the influence was.So yeah, I just found out that I think she reported to police hq 5 hours ago.Hope that when she comes out she'll be a changed person.It's also scary because it's the second person that i know who's been placed under BPC in the past 30 days. Perhaps if my friend and I fell deeper, we could be the next one. You'll never know.TC, Both of you.

2011-01-07T23:13:00.001+08:00

HEYYY,
haven't been posting for a few days!
BEECAUSE,
i've been super busy.
HAHAH. really.
i have designer eye bags now.
BUT YEAH.
tomorrow will be the last day of this busy week.
and then it'll be hell for the rest of the year.

so yeah,
quick update before i sleep,
i've been going for sec one orientation the past few days,
been waking up at 5 am (onmyown) -proud-
and returning home around 7/8.
sometimes around 10 after tuition.
after i get home,
i've to rush up work that is needed for the next day,
most of the time till around midnight.
So yeah,
that's why i haven't been posting.
sorry.
(i know you secretly don't care!)
HAHA

okay whatever it is,
i'm gonna sleep now.

SO BAI.

05012010

2011-01-05T06:41:00.001+08:00

Imma off to school.Get well soon alright? Take care uh!

2011-01-03T14:21:00.002+08:00

Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi - Wang Li Hong

School's starting tomorrow.
Same old pattern,
wake up, brush teeth, prepare for school, walk like a zombie to the busstop, board the bus, brace myself if the bus is gonna suddenly brake or something or some obnoxious passenger decide to push me and/ or my friends, walk on that familiar passageway to school, try my best not to trip myself (everyday), put on the tie, pin my hair, check my uniform at least 2 times, walk into school gate, adjust my uniform somemore, walk to void deck, see friends and then,

SCHOOL LIFE BEGINS.

Go up to the podium to say the pledge (on alternate weeks), go back to the void deck to join the rest of the prefects, chat a little here and there, settle some admin (if needed), go back up to class,

sit in class, try to stay awake, staying awake, STAY AWAKE, slaps face, shakes head 2 dozen times, drink water again and again and again, stare at the teacher,

ZONE OUT.

RECESS TIME YEAH,
run outta classroom to report for duty (LOL IM ALWAYS RUNNING. x.x), check everything again and again and again, go for duty rounds, check the time, chase students back up to class, Eat my food, run back to class for lesson,

SAME PATTERN REPEATS AGAIN,

then school ends.

Jyeah, school life.
1 whole year of it.
O levels this year.
LOL hard to cope lahh.
HARD.
HAHA, but nevermind lah.
Jiayou jiayou.
4/6 JIAYOUUUUUUUUUU
somemore this year got coursework!
- eggcited! -
HAHA,
but ya,
like what Jovi told me on saturday,
' Art and DnT, we always do last minute work one. Always last minute chiong. Haha, so this year you sec 4 le, must work hard alright. '
Haha, i totally agree man Jovi,
art exam prep work,
last min chiong, do until 3 am,
work less than satisfactory
but one word on my mind all the time.
' SLEEP '
LOL JIAYOU GRACE YOU CAN DO IT!

Sec one Orientation tomorrow.
Day 1,
we can do it!
YAY.

jiayous prefects,
no matter what troubles comes by,
you can do it de!
even if you break down and cry during orientation,
just do it!
'cause i cried too.
so it's no biggie.
Just give it your all.
and you'll be truly satisfied.

Jiayous!

Lol this post so many jiayous.
But ya.
It's a no joke year.
No more fooling around like sec 3.
No more shit mentality that everything will work out fine when i study last minute.

kthxbai.

i feel so useless 'cause i'm always unable to cheer you up.
yeah.

2011-01-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

Pearl Harbour - There You'll Be

Looking through Cambodia pics once again.
that tinge of sadness is back even though you see all the happy faces of the kids.
Reminds me, this is the 4th week without an email from CPCDO already.
2nd week without an email from Happyland.
LOL i feel sad x 10000000.
This year,
i aim to go to Happytree, CPCDO, Happyland, Centre of Peace, Siem Reap,

Today i went to study chem.
LOL. major headache.
But i really wanna thank you for your patience in teaching me.
LOL I KNOW YOU ALSO DAMN FRUSTRATED.
Thanks Loads!

school's gonna start.
SIAN.
LOL.

Tomorrow last day of holiday le! WHAT SHOULD I DO?!
GO BEACH?
SLEEP AT HOME?
OR WHAT?
ARGHHHH!
ZOO?
SHOPPING?
KRANJI WAR MEMORIAL?
ARGH
i wanna do something meaningful.
BORED TTM.
TYVM.

happiness, is right here.

020111

2011-01-02T18:12:00.001+08:00

House Music is the remedy. <3

2010-12-31T16:04:00.006+08:00

One Love - David Guetta

It's the last day of 2010!
So i shall take the courtesy to do a picture filled post. LOL WTH.

This year was full of ups and downs. I learnt a lot this year. Fell hard, picked myself up, became a totally different person, hated myself, got back to square one, hated myself again and again and again. Couldn't even recognize myself. Lost my passion for everything, turned suicidal, failed almost everything, lied lied lied.

2010's a year i wouldn't love. It's not worth remembering.

Until November 28th came.
Until he actually forgave me.

Yes, everytime i log in to Tumblr, i see people say,
' what good will it do for me to keep waiting? Waiting for forgiveness? It'll never come. '

I agreed actually. I lost hope in everything. Strong upfront, fragile inside, freakin' screwed mentality.

But he forgave me.

Yeah, it may sound simple. But it's everything to me.
and yeah, i've changed.

Just now, Jackson called me,
asked me if i wanted to go countdown with him and a few other mates,
said we're gonna go drinking.
If i was who i was,
i'd say,

' SUI LAH, WHAT TIME, WHERE. WAHLAN EH ALL THOSE PEOPLE I DUNNO ONE. AIYA BU YONG JIN LAH, JUST GO. LOL. Eh sms wo the venue. tyvm kor. BUT CB, WO JIU LIANG BU HAO. LOL
CONFIRM K.O DE. LOL. Aiya, don't care lah, just go. hahahah, kkk see ya later. '

Ya,
i'd have said that. Like seriously.

But i said,
' LOL BU YAO LAH, bu yao bu yao, zhen de, bu yao. ni zhao bie ren bah. kk ah. bye. '
- exact words -

hahaha! Note the change!
and the amount of vulgarities used compared to now!
LOL LOL LOL.
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i'm proud of you Grace!
- pat on shoulder -

Also,
another junior was talking to me about all the unsavory stuff that i used to be super interested in.
he told me a lot about what what what next year sec one what what what then what kena whack what aiya I DUNNO LAH
I WAS JUST SO FRUSTRATED THE WHOLE TIME HE WAS TALKING TO ME.
so i just politely closed the convo and went offline.
HAH.
okay if he sees this i'm dead.
haha!

okay enough ranting about the change i went through!

time for pictures!

This is my favourite picture!
You may ask why.
LOOK AT SYAFII'S EYE AND YOU'LL UNDERSTAND WHY.

I have the best class ever.

And this is my dearest EXCO,

We've all gone through so much together as a team.
We've seen guys in our team breakdown more than once,
girls flare up,
we've had our share of fun, laughter, stress.
We've fell out, made up, fell out again and again and again,
but we're still a team of 11, standing strong.
EXCO, JIAYOU!

I can't seem a find a picture of my brother and i.
sad.
but this is his side view.
I just realised that he has a weird nose.
HAHA.
My sister has a round button nose, i have a sharper nose, My brother has a round button sharp nose!
HOW NOT COOL.
LOL.

His name is Christopher and he's my brother.
AND HE'S AN AWESOME MUSICIAN.
Okay fine, someone who is studying to become one.
BUT LOL.
once again,
he's having a Gig at Scape on the 29th of january.
They're suppose to have one today. to rock out will the end of 2010. But sadly idk what happened and no gig! ):
So yeah! Please do support him on the 29th
I'll fill you guys in on more details when i have the details. LOL.

uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
okay fine i'm lazy to post more pictures because i have a massive headache now.
- miserable -
LOL.
But yarh,
i just want to highlight light that you might want to check out the Cambodia trip pictures on facebook,
perhaps you'll understand why im so passionate about it,
perhaps not.
BUT YEAH.

Okayeeeeeeeeeee time for new year resolutions!
First time i'm doing this!
(i think)
okay.
#1, i don't want to upset him again.

#2, (SECRET) :P

#3, To study real hard for 365 days or less actually! So that i can go to a good JC so that i can at least so to Uni to pursue art. If not i'll have to go study in LaSalle, which is very costly. Another option is NYP. BUT I DON'T LIKE THE DESIGN COURSES THEY OFFER SO IMMA STICKING TO JC/ LASALLE.

#4, not commit the same mistakes i committed this year.

#5, Go back to Cambodia. ( I'm saving up already. :P )

#6, do more sponsorships.

#7, 2011 to be a year worth remembering.

i have a lot of things to say actually.
But i can't say it here.
It's a public website and all and it's secret.
LOL
OKAY WHATEVER.
HAHAHAHA.

p/s, on a side note, please note that i do not spout vulgarities like in the example above. yes, once in a while it slips out, BUT NOT THAT MUCH K.
it's like 5 percent of what i used to say. I punctuated every sentence with vulgarities in the past. But that was the past. HAHA.
okay.

AITE!
have fun this last day of 2010!

PEACE OUT!

2010-12-30T22:11:00.002+08:00

Xin Teng Ni De Xin Teng - Fahrenheit

Im super busy now so i think this will be a short post.
OMG so stress. LOL.
Today was super awesome.
I don't know how to elaborate,
But we know how awesome it was jiu hao le,

Tomorrow's the last day of 2010.
This year will end perfectly and next year will start perfectly.
May it end perfectly too.

Jiayou for you work tomorrow kay!
Don't forget to eat.
AND SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT.

OKAY BAI.

2010-12-29T19:49:00.002+08:00

2AM - Like Crazy

Today was real exhausting. Had a long day. Really tired leh.
But i think, EXCO bond really really strengthened a lot.
Although ya, We fight a lot. A lot a lot a lot.
But through it all, we always forget all the grudges that we have and then press on as a team with a smile.
EXCO stands as a team, as a family, as bestfriends, 11 people strong.

I'm really glad you kept your promise.
I hope that i won't disappoint you again.

Alright, My 4th aunt, her daughter and my niece just came to my house,
soooo,
byebye!

2010-12-28T22:00:00.002+08:00

DENG DENG DENG.

HARLOW.

I GOT THE EAGLES AWARD.
YAY.

Thank you,
for caring for me.
PIKACHU!

28122010

2010-12-28T09:50:00.001+08:00

I Did Wrong - 2amWoke up @ 9 this morning. Which is, 49 mins ago. Settled my calls and work etcetc and now need go back school. Tired max.But glad that I finally managed to grab some sleep. Alright, shall post when I get back home.Kthxbai.

2010-12-27T20:15:00.003+08:00

Enrique Iglesias - Tonight (I'm Lovin' You) feat. Ludacris

I want to end this year meaningfully.
But haha,
i'm stuck with so much to do and so little time.
I really wanna go watch the sunrise.
Like YA.
REALLY.
but no time.
haha,
nevermind.

Today was alright.
i'm just terribly tired.
worked on prefect stuff all the way till 3 am yesterday.
woke up at 7 then headed to school.
slept in the prefect room.
too exhausted.
and i have huge eyebags.
i look like a friggin panda.
lol wth.
damn shag + ugly.

My bro got a girly face.
while i got a guy-ish face.
We look really alike.
Like seriously.
But i have MJ's chin.
and his chin is like those typical chins.
I hate my chin.
He likes mine.
I wanna swap eh.
so ugly lol.
i dislike this chin.
lol.

My nose hurts.
from 5/6 pm ++ until now already.
thanks to dennis koo ming hong.
-.-
thanks,
for killing my phone in january,
for sneezing on my head this morning,
for pushing my head to the window on the bus, so much so that my nose bridge hit the windor and it hurts like &^$*^%#* now.
IF INTERNAL BLEEDING OR MY NOSE BREAK I WILL BREAK YOUR NOSE.
HAHA.
but yeah whatever,
used to it already.
KARMA WILL GET YOU DENNIS JUST YOU WAIT.
IF KARMA DOESN'T HIT YOU, I WILL.
LOL.

I love tumblr-logging.
I love blogging.
I love facebooking.

BAHAHA.

i'm tired today.
but i still wanna talk to you.
because i like talking to you.
although we LOL and :) at each other all the time.
so yeah,

迷路兵饮食男女 HIGH QUALITY MV (完整版) [With Lyrics]

2010-12-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep.
because i can't sleep.
HAHA.
k so i was trolling through a lot of stuff,
came across this video by Mi Lu Bing,
features my cousin as the main character in this video.
pretty huh,
(:

alright.
goodnight.

2010-12-26T18:08:00.002+08:00

Feng - Jay Chou

Sorry for short short post yesterday.
I enjoyed yesterday a lot.
BECAUSE IT WAS AWESOME.
HEHE.
though it was really quiet.
:/

we were like,
:O
:|
:]
:D
:/
:O
:O
:O
:O
:O
:O
:|
:|
:|
:DDDD

YA.
LIKE THAT.
HAHAHA.
But it was fun.
went orchard,
then vivo,
then lot one,
THEN HOME-ED
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

But not forgetting to mention,
i sustained a lot of injuries ya know!
head kena kok,
kena poke,
hand kena kiap by that thing at Toys 'R Us.
AIYA A LOT LEH.
BULLY.
):

But i had fun!
Next time we go Kranji Memorial okay!
HEHs.

PIKACHU
YEAHHHHHHH

okay,
time to work!
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE

2010-12-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

Nothing Better - Jung Yup

It's not difficult to be happy.
Today,
i'm happy.

2010-12-24T12:17:00.003+08:00

Waiting Outside The Lines - Greyson Chance

I love Greyson's voice.

is it christmas eve?
Haha,
but wtv lah,
there's no christmas mood.

oh,
i just saw Noelle's status on FB.

Noelle Junior Lim
Today midnight sure got ppl marry . And sure got ppl stead . Marry is ok . But i hate how those ppl plan their " stead dates " la , super lame -.-

HAHA,
HOW TRUE!
:P

i'm terribly hungry now,
and i don't know why.
I love tumblr-logging but it's so irritating to keep waiting for the next page and then press the
REBLOG
button.
tsk.
But still...
I love tumblr-logging.
BAHAHAHAHA.
:>

Quick update on mum,
she's looking much better when i visited her yesterday.
still in much pain lah,
but what's pain killers for?
Thanks saints, relatives, friends for asking about her and for offering to visit her.
You can contact my dad directly actually.
'cause i can't give you her ward number etc.
i was sworn to not silence!
okay fine i'm exaggerating.
but yelah,
i'm not allowed to tell people 'cause for simple reasons - mum needs to rest.
too many people = her getting tired = wound hurting = cannot rest properly = cannot heal properly = worsening of condition = cannot discharge on christmas = NO MUM AT HOME
YOU WANT THAT?
HAHAHA
okay so yaaaa.
want visit her,
contact my dad.

idk what's wrong with me this morning.
MAYBE BECAUSE I JUST WATCHED MYCHONNY AND BUBZ.
<3

I like the way how everytime i ask people,
' HEY YOU WANNA GO CAMBODIA WITH ME NEXT YEAR? '
and then they'll be like,
- twinkle in eyes -
then...
' HUH DOWAN LAH......................................... '
then i'm like
):
then they're like
- oh shit i made her sad -
and then they're say,
(Standard)
' when? i see if i got time. (: '
so i :)
and then tell them that it's at the end of the year.
and then they will ( standard answer )
' see how! cos i going overseas! '

sadgasm.
NEVERMIND.
IM GOING AND THAT'S THAT.
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Last night,
EXCO did a belated birthday celebration for me and ShiMin.
under our blocks.
i only went there at around 9 plus plus at night.
then they were almost done.
but they did a birthday butt shake for me!
they had it filmed down,
maybe dennis will upload it!
Hope not!
:P
but it was fun!
and my brother tagged along too!
And the exco GUYS said that my brother's handsome.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
BROMANCE.
but i love my brother so YARHHHHHHH.
He's having a gig on 29th January a Scape,
so if you can,
please do go kkk!
give my bro some support!
im not sure of the timing tho.
will update (i think)
HAHA.

but yeah!
thanks dearest exco for the celebration!
we were laughing so loud that it was surprising the police weren't called.
BUT THEN AGAIN,
it was 9 plus so HAHA.
but yeah!
luvluvluvluvluvluvluv you guys!

ogay.
i needa go do my other stuff now!

kthxbai!
<3

2010-12-23T13:55:00.001+08:00

Gotten - Slash ft. Adam Levine

Just back from camp.
Going hospital later.

kkkkk wo hen lei liao.

will not be blogging so frequently.

2010-12-20T15:51:00.003+08:00

Good music makes you high.

BEST DNB BEATBOX,
search on youtube and subscribe!
this guy is the bomb.
MASTA MIC
Thanks Christopher for the intro,
this guy's super awesome.
Make sure you go listen and subscribe to him!

DJ BLEND is another one,
but some/most may not like that kind of music.
BUT I LIKE.
hahaha.

since i can't go out today,
so i'll spend my time listening to awesome songs.
BAHAHAHA.
But i really want to go out.
LOL.

Prefect Camp tomorrow.
Not staying full time though.
so can't really expect much,
can i?
HAHA,
okay whatever.

at this point of time,
i wanna address,
that i don't like to use macbook.
>:@
using Christopher's ( Brother ) Macbook now
and everytime i move the cursor,
my google chrome disappears.
>:@
okay,
maybe i'm just too noob.
T,T

okay back to topic.
actually there's no topic.
LOL WTH.

kthxbai.

2010-12-20T00:27:00.001+08:00

It's so easy to be happy and sad.
Just that snap of the finger and tada,
your emotion changes.

OKAY WHATEVER.
2 more days.

bahahaha,
wtf.
no mood.

19122010

2010-12-19T16:52:00.001+08:00

Falling Slowly - Kriss AllenI keep refreshing my mail but still no email from Cambodia. Sadgasm. It's been 2 weeks already. NO EMAIL FOR 2 WEEKS!Dammit.Sad sad sad.. Faster email.Jah, I need counselling, as she said.But it's hard to open up to a stranger, Seriously. Been there, done that.Forget the past.Forget everything.Start afresh.Can I really do it?On a lighter note,My gay partner don't want me alr.My gay partner wants Kara.I sad Liao. Somemore tissue paper also dw pass me.Heartless right!No more bro love man.Sad.Bahahahahhahaha.I want go out tomorrow. :)

2010-12-18T20:57:00.002+08:00

Diddy - Dirty Money - Coming Home ft. Skylar Grey

Today was so so.

Do participate in Chrome for a cause programme.
go google and search.

kthxbai.

2010-12-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

Don't Let Me Go - The Click Five

Today was as usual, busy busy busy.
forever busy, non-stop.
I shall find a day and go shopping.
or just chill with a few mates.
Life is good.
Or rather,
Like Will Be Good.

I don't have any idea as to what to do during Christmas.
Yeh, i know i'm a Christian and all,
and whenever i tell people i don't celebrate christmas,
they'll be like,
' O.O I THOUGHT YOU CHRISTIAN. WHERE GOT LIKE THAT ONE. '
haha,
Haven't celebrated it since birth.
SO YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
But there seems to be this hype about Christmas!
So i feel like doing something for Christmas.
BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT.
ANYBODY WANNA JIO ME OUT FOR CHRISTMAS?
(:

okay,
i have a lot to do today.
Just like everyday.
Nothing new.

tomorrow also busy!
O:
okay lah,
wtv.
i super tired alr.
can conk out any minute.
I need my daily 12 hours of sleep.
Too bad my mum disagrees and wakes me up after 8.
x.x
zombie.

Oh yes,
today we were doing our presentation slides and we came up with this cos we're too bored!
Syazwani - Wanieeeee MeowMeow
Afiqah - Fyqaa Siowsiow
Aisyah - ShashaFiercy
Shafirah - Fyfy FenehWorld
Grace - Mingmingzxzxzxzc Jepon
Aiman - Maman Sapau DanjyAhfat
Justin - Juju ke’ai
Sun Wen - Susu wowza
Syafii - Pi’ee Satsatstarboii

KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
BAI.

I like being in Your presence.
You make me happy.

2010-12-17T08:27:00.002+08:00

That Should Be Me - Justin Bieber

Yesterday was (Y).

heading over to school soon.
massive headache.

am looking through the slides and i am
like >:@
so i'm in no mood to blog now.

kthxbai.

2010-12-14T15:32:00.003+08:00

Know what,
i kinda miss my kitten.
My kitten for 3 days.
):
How're you doing Josef,
he's terribly cute,
hidding under the sofa and stuff.
too bad,
i couldn't keep it.

i've never tried macaroons before.
Anyone want to blanjah me?
I know i can get it at Bakerzin over at United Square.
But i'm terribly lazy to walk into the shop and ask for one.
so YAHHHHHHHHHHH
>:)

2010-12-14T13:11:00.002+08:00

NUMB NUMB NUMB NUMB NUMB.

can't find a song that suits me now.

NUMB NUMB NUMB NUMB NUMB.
bro called me a hooker.
-.-
you judge.
facebook, under album 12th december 2010.
Gyan called me Pink.
Timothy said i looked goth.
Mum said i look like ah lian.
-.-

okay lah whatever,
i want listen to my emo song now.
zai jian.

You're my best birthday present.
Though i don't want to admit.
I don't want to lose you again.

YES LAH SPONSORSHIP FOR SOPHEAP = 80 PERCENT COMPLETED.
YAY.
Weight off my mind now.
so many emails to reply,
can die.
Oh, just received news from Cambodia,
via the organisation.
haha,
didn't expect myself to be so involved in Community Service.
But i'm really enjoying it.
Looking forward to perhaps another trip there next year.
Pray hard that my prayers will be answered.

2010-12-13T18:47:00.014+08:00

Hello,
Shall try to do a proper post today.

Been back from Cambodia for officially a week already.
Kinda getting over the ' omg i miss cambodia so much ' thing already.
But jyeah,
imma posting some of my favourite pictures here.

I'd like to introduce a few of the people whom i really bonded with.
After reviewing my pictures, i realised that majority are guys.

This is my favorite picture.
BESTFRIENDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

This kid may look 3.
But don't let the looks fool you.
He's 6.
The people we see are really short.
Or rather,
They don't look their age.
He's crying because he's sick and he wants to go home.

Something Chit,
17 this year.
Played volleyball with him and i couldn't move my 4th finger for a few days.
He's cool though.
Got a friendship band from him.

i miss him so much..
He's the little one who was running into us,
bumping into us the first day we were at CPCDO.
He's 2 this year.
He cried when i left.
I was the first in our whole group to cry.
Because i saw him cry..
sigh.
I'd like to see him again.
Miss him so much.

This guy in the center of the picture,
He came up to me before their FIRST MEAL IN A RESTAURANT and told me that he thought i was a guy.
He also asked if i was Korean or Singaporean.
Clicked rather well.
Though our acquaintance lasted only 2 hours.

This is Monh.
MY BESTFRIENDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
):
He didn't reply my email yesterday.
):
He's 19 this year,
Studying in High School.

This is idk what's his name.
But he's monh's friend.
i can't remember his name! ARGHHH
):
He's another reason why i cried too.
but not only because of him lah.
After their dinner at the restaurant,
it was our last farewell.
Everyone else in our team went shopping at the mall opposite the restaurant.
But i asked Miss lim if i could stay.
Glad i did.
Because the kids were about to leave.
Was holding back my tears.
Was really sad.
This guy,
he looked at me and asked
' where, your friends? not here? '
i told him, they went shopping.
then he looked at me with tears in his eyes, and said,
' i have to go.. my email, with aisyah. take care and good trouble. '
he shook my hand and then he couldn't talk anymore.
i was about to cry too.
hais..
k i know it sounds damn drama but it's true.

She's a really bright girl.
Sadly she's angry at me because i showed attention to another kid
that can't speak english..
sigh.
lent her my camera and she took really good shoots.
AND YEAH AS YOU CAN SEE,
SHE DAMN WELL KNOW HOW TO CAMWHORE.
<3

The kid that doesn't know how to speak english.
He's a really smart boy.

Note,
I do not disclose names/the homes they are staying at lest i bring harm to them.

I think i matured a lot after this trip.
Dunno how to say lah,
but people have been noticing a subtle change in me.
and yes,
i am going to print out their pictures and paste it on my wall
so that everytime i feel like giving up on my studies,
i look at them and hopefully it will motivate me.
yes,
what my bestfriend (first picture) said was true.
i told him that yeah,
i would love to go back to cambodia.
He told me,
' come back After you study Finish. '
he also told me that he'd like to be an architect when he grows up.
and would love to come to Singapore.
from what i understand,
they'd like to get out of their country.
i don't know,
i may be wrong.
but jyeah,
that's what i understand from the time i spent with them.

i'd love to go back again.
but today i was talking to Aiman,
and he said,
' though we've been making plans to go back,
i doubt we'd be able to really fulfill that dream.'
yeah,
actually i agree.

shall post more if i have the time.

12122010

2010-12-12T16:36:00.001+08:00

Speak Now - Taylor SwiftArgh horrible headache. Caught Flu bug. Sick since I came back from overseas. Grrrrr. O: maybe it's dengue. O: maybe it's H1N1 ! Hahaha rubbish.Going to Funeral later on. >,:Ala. I head pain cannot think straight already.Tsktsk.Post later perhaps.Bye.

2010-12-11T21:48:00.003+08:00

HARLOW.

R.I.P Brother Hee.
>:

ANYWAYS.
YAY TOMORROW IS A SUNDAY.
SO I WILL GET MY EMAIL.
(Y)

okay besides that,
i also dunno why i so happy.
LMAO.

I VEH BUSY NOW A DAYS LEH.
STUDY + PREFECT = WHOLE DAY ALREADY.
):
Not enough time to rest.
aiyoooooooooooooooo
OH WHEN GETTING O LEVEL RESULTS ARH?
I QUITE confident for my Chinese Results leh.
HAHA.
wth.
Skali come back f9
T.T

Anyone can help me with my Chemistry Basics?
I study study study but still don't understand leh.
If you're free,
I may not be free too.
HAHA,
saturday morning and Sunday Afternoon i free.
BUT WHO'S WILLING TO HELP?!
):

&& i need someone to help with my enquiry on future after going to a art school.
AIYO tou tong lah.
HAHA

okayokay.
i want to watch my Personal Taste.
BAIBAI.

11122010

2010-12-11T01:18:00.001+08:00

Wahwahwah. Blogging from itouch now. Just downloaded this app since I deleted my blogwriter by accident months ago.I'm so happy and life is gay.You never you boy how much I love you.So please don't take my guinea pig away.Head and shoulders knees and toes knees and toes knees and toes x2 and eyes and ears and mouth and noes, head and shoulders knees and toes knees and toes!What time is it Mr Wolf?Okay forgive me. I'm experiencing a bit of midnight madness now. I can't seem to sleep. Hmmmm. Oh and there's thunder outside. How cool! Waiting for my weekly Sunday email!Yayyayyay.Bahahaha. I do hope that i can stu permanently in Cambodia! Then maybe marry someLocal or, maybe my husband can follow me to cambodia! Awesome idea? Hahaha.Rubbish. I'm only 15.But hey, it's good to dream!Oh come to think of it,I just evolved (k I sound like some pokemon) from 14 to 15 years old.And then next year I'm gonna be 16! How cool!So I think people born on the last day of the year are super cool. Because they just evolved and the next day their gonna be another year older. WOW.:3Okayyyyyyy wo hen lei Liao.Wan an, :)

2010-12-08T18:04:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK!

CAMBODIA WAS AWESOME.
Please do go to my Facebook profile to view my pictures.
and hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
malaysia was boring though.
the stay at the hotel was erm..
alright..

And yeah,
i'm striving hard to return to Cambodia again,
next year.
i cried a lot there.
First time i cried was when my 'son',
Dat, 2 years old, currently staying in CPCDO, stayed there for a year already
cried when i left.
when tears streamed out from his eyes,
my heart tore.
Cried all the way from CPCDO to City Cat, where we had our dinner.
I miss him.
I miss him so much.
I pray that he'll grow up to be a strong,
handsome,
sucessful boy.

the second time was on the last day,
when we left khairos Guest Home,
i cried all the way to the airport and was still crying.
i miss cambodia.
It's a beautiful place.

i learnt a lot.
AND YES, I AM GOING BACK.
MY PARENTS PROMISED ME ALR.
But i'm saving up for my ticket and stuff lah,
i planned out everything alr.
HAHA.
so yeah!
JY GRACEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

thank you for remembering my birthday.

dreading 22nd december.
I pray that nothing bad happens.
And thank you prefects (mainly mentor and exco),
for understanding.
i'm sorry i won't be able to spend time with ya'll.
well, at least not much.
thank ya'll so much.

If you guys don't know,
well just say,
Family problem.
yeah.

each time you fall,
just get back up.
Each time you cry,
wipe it all off.
start all over again.
Move.
Move on.
Move it.
Get back up.

have you already forgiven me?
i hope so.

2010-11-29T09:31:00.002+08:00

I'm leaving for Cambodia today.
So yeah,
i'm sorry i haven't been posting.
There's nothing to post about anyway.

uhm yeah,
i'll be cutting my hair in an hour's time.
Uhm,
sorry Mr Kong,
i know you told me not to cut my hair.
But i have my reasons and i wish you'd understand.

So yeah,
Hopefully all will turn out well during this trip.
I do have my doubts.
God Bless Me.

I prayed for you the other day.
Or rather, the past year.
I wonder if God heard.

alright,
Got to go bathe then.
leaving soon already.
If you're quick enough to catch this post,
i'll be able to text till 2 plus i guess.
Flight's at 4.
so yeah,
it's 9.42 am now.
haha.

there's this lingering sadness.
I don't know why,
i just can't shake it off.
.___.

p/s, yesterday's birthday was erm alright i guess.
HAHA,
rather eventful day i must say.

alright,
i really have to go.
Catch me on facebook,
i think there's WiFi at the orphanage i'm being put up at.
other than that,
i'm coming back on the 5th and subsequently leaving for malaysia straight.
So logically,
i'll be back on the 8th.

take care.

2010-11-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

IM PLAYING MAPLE
YAY.
LIKE,
after 1 year?
:D

anyways,
you lied from the start.
no strings attatched.
don't bother contacting me in near future.
I'm not in the mood to talk to you.
(:

2010-11-25T20:57:00.001+08:00

Unlocked.

' knowledge will give you power, but character respect. When you hit all time low in life, do not pray for an easy life. Instead, pray to God that you have the strength to overcome it. All the best, ben dan! '
From my dearest mentor, Chew An Jiang.
Thank you.
(:

2010-10-27T13:50:00.002+08:00

Grenade - Bruno Mars

stomachache lah ! >:@

okokok , i'm back from camp !

Whoa , i've a lot to complain .

LUL .

Firstly , the campsite is about..

1 km away from Changi Airport .

Every 30 mins there'll be planes flying over the campsite .

The noise the planes make ah ..

takbolehtahan .

But some funny things happened because of the planes lah .

Haha .

erh .

okay intructors .

Some are really good .

the rest are just okaylorh .

or really cannot make it .

attitude problem .

keep talking among themselves .

don't entertain us at all .

i mean , in between activities ,

they don't give us anything to do at all .

I mean in between some activities we have about an hour sometimes .

Sometimes even more .

They just let us slack .

-.-

We could have used that time to do prep work for camp you know .

i'll elaborate about that later on .

Keep shouting at us for no reason .

-.-

Keep wasting our time .

-.-

But not all instructors are like that.

Faris , Jim , Ahn are good .

Nadiah cannot make it .

like seriously .

no one likes her lah .

stop acting cute .

-.-

act cute in front of guys ,

in front of girls ,

give attitude .

WTF .

you not chio lorh .

so fat .

Campfire

We only had like what .. 2 hours or less for prep?

wth .

-.-

if i may suggest ,

i hope the school will not use them as the camp facilitators anymore .

In my opinion ,

i think Camp High Achievers are the best .

they're really good .

Like Really .

ok ,

enough complaining .

my nose sunburn until very pain .

I need goo do my 180 pages of Kumon worksheets now .

And Piano Theory .

TSKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK .

kthxbai .

2010-10-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

Waiting for something that will never happen .

2010-10-23T15:19:00.001+08:00

Grenade - Bruno Mars

Back from Kumonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

Adan Lambbird told me to go watch ice1cube .

NOT BAD AH .

ME LIKEY .

HAHAH .

okay i'm damn bored .

packing for camp is a bore man .

BUT I THINK IT'LL BE FUN !

should i wear my contacts there ? :/

2010-10-22T14:33:00.004+08:00

567th day

Replace Your Heart - The Wanted

I promoted to sec 4 express .

yeah .

i'm gonna tumblr spam today because things went terribly wrong today .

kthxbai .

2010-10-21T19:42:00.002+08:00

'cause what goes up must come down .

don't let me fall .

These few day's been hazy .

heartache ,

disappointment ,

anger ,

frustration .

i haven't been talking for my father .

today's the 4th day already .

I miss those days when i'm sad ,

i could just bus down to her house and then cry .

Do nothing but cry .

she won't ask .

Her house is just there for me to cry .

At least it was a place of solace .

But it's a road i don't want to return to anymore .

I know a lot of people care for me .

A lot of people are willing to be there to listen to me ,

to lend me a shoulder .

to wipe away my tears .

But after what he told me last week ,

i realised what i fool i was .

though my friend for barely a month ,

he made my realise that my attitude rang wo hen rong yi bei ren pian .

he said that i'm too naive .

he's right .

Now i find it extremely tough just to open up and talk to people .

anyone there willing to call me and we'll have a silent phone call k ?

);

2010-10-21T18:31:00.002+08:00

LUL ,

dunno what's wrong with me .

everytime meet until something that displeases me jiu give black face

give so cb face .

cb attitude .

aiya dunno what's wrong lah .

zzz .

today's SEP was fun .

i took dance .

We were dancing to DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love Again - Usher

i'm damn stiff ah .

like cannot move .

lol .

After school i went to Kumon for my first tuition session .

LOL ,

it was well ..

interesting .

and yeah .

asking mr ng if i've been promoted to sec 4 express or not .

He sent me ,

' what do you think ? '

sian gg liao .

if really drop to NA i also bwg lah .

but ya lah ,

really disappoint my parents too much liao ..

my teachers and my friends and my seniors too .

aiya ,

grace ,

you suck k .

wtfbbq .

Forget Everything .

2010-10-20T13:27:00.002+08:00

Like A G6 - Far East Movement

huhu ,

today holiday .

i need my chemistry textbook so can any kind soul give me yours ?

or can the person who stole mine return it ?

tsk .

-.-

lul ,

i wanna go out .

anyone wanna jio me go out ?

2010-10-19T20:24:00.002+08:00

Things haven't been going well these days .

i had a lot to say .

But now i don't .

lol wtf .

Gyan told me today

that i'm never gonna find anyone that's the same as you .

He told me to stop searching and admit that there's no more you .

Stop searching .

Wake up .

stop counting .

stop searching .

Stop everything ,

Stop this shit .

he wanted to slap me a lot of times today .

.__.

sorry buddy .

i can help in your relationship but i can't handle mine .

he's been helping me over 1 year and 7 months alr .

not once has he stopped .

Haha ,

ironically ,

on the day we broke up ,

he was the one who burnt my hand in the science lab .

i still have a scar there .

my first break up .

Left a scar physically and emotionally .

LOL wtf .

thanks Gyan ,

you're a really great guy .

thanks a trillion .

i've to stop .

2010-10-19T20:05:00.001+08:00

ZHang Shao Han - Ying Xing De Chi Pang

i've nothing more to say .

really nothing .

2010-10-17T17:41:00.002+08:00

damn tired .

zzzzzzzzzzzz .

wlau ,

who the hell is dashanan steed .

keep fb chat me .

' hi '

WTF .

-.-

i wanna dedicate the song

Dinosaur - Kesha

to you k.

kthxbai .

TEXT MEEEEEEEEEEEE !
))))))))))))))))))):

2010-10-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

LOL .

i just realised that my msn password has smth to do with you .

LOL

guess i still haven't forgotten you after what seemed like a thousand years .

2010-10-15T20:14:00.003+08:00

Be good or be good at it .

i'm sick and tired of people looking at me when i don't style my hair and go ,

oooooooooo ,

that ah gua have boobs .

or ehhh , is that a girl or guy then snigger .

LOL .

FK YOU ,

i have feelings too .

got my extensions today .

but i have a very man face .

My chin's like michael jackson's .

Like seriously .

this is so irritating .

-.-

and worst ,

i can't cut my hair .

WTF IS THIS MAN .

2010-10-14T21:03:00.002+08:00

Anarchy In Tokyo - 30 seconds to mars .

before it began it's over .

i blamed everyone except for myself .

but i was the one who changed .

i don't even remember what kind of person i was in the past .

i was the one who changed .

it's my fault .

i'm terribly tired today and i wanna thank Justin , You Xin and Jermaine .

thanks .

2010-10-13T23:05:00.001+08:00

554th day .

i'm very tired today .

2010-10-12T17:20:00.004+08:00

553rd day .

Agony .

Bu Gou Cheng Shou - By2

Everyone laughing at the way i speak

NEHMIND IT'S OKAY .

I VERY NAISE .

I FORGIVE ALL OF YOU .

tomorrow last day of exams le .

i can do it .

after today maybe i won't see you anymore le ..

i know you will live well de ..

maybe in time you'll forget me .

maybe you already don't feel anything already .

i know you will find someone that loves you de .

you're a good person .

you will de .

i only want you to know that i am really very sorry .

sorry that i lied to you .

sorry for all my childish acts .

sorry for not listening to you .

i'm very sorry .

i'm really very grateful that at the very least ,

we had a past together .

though it was short lived happiness ,

it was the happiest time i've ever lived .

i wanna thank you for teaching me so much .

for putting up with all my tantrums .

all my stupid childish moments .

i know whatever i do ,

you will never come back ever again .

there's so much that i can't put to words .

and i know i cannot .

i really miss you .

i'm sorry .

i'm sorry for hurting you .

i'm sorry i didn't cherish .

i'm sorry for saying that we're quits .

i'm sorry .

i really am .

i don't know if i'll migrate .

i really hope i won't .

2010-10-11T18:34:00.002+08:00

Dancing with tears in my eyes - kesha

I JUST GOT BACK FROM THE ORTHODENTIST .
I've my retainers .
so i can't speak properly .
i prolly speak like
Taaaaht , euhhhh undeshtandh mefff ?
oooof ,
sorrff .
i'ff mefff retainerhffs on ( swallows saliva )
hehe so yeah .
:D

2010-10-11T12:11:00.001+08:00

My brother's first camwhore attempt .

cute mah ?

i think very cute .

2010-10-11T11:52:00.003+08:00

552nd day .

My Everything - 98 degrees

being sick sucks kayy .

nausea whole week ,

made a trip to the doctors yesterday .

know what he said ?

' OH YOU'RE COMPLETELY FINE . '

wth .

gave me med and stuff lah .

Standard .

at night ,

went for jog .

when i came home ,

wah ,

cannot breathe ,

cannot move ,

about to puke .

you see , that's the problem .

i feel like puking but nothing ever comes out .

ate med then felt better .

zzz .

today morning ,

nausea again .

had to eat med in school .

Doctor ah ,

you sure i okay not .

Had a nightmare during exam today .

so it's damn obvious what i was doing lah .

k .

damn scary .

O.O

Geog tomorrow .

confidence level = Zero

Chem and art on wednesday .

I shall remember to go order my contact lens tomorrow instead of heading straight home .

p/s ,

Cecilia don't sad alr k ?

smileeeeeeeeeeee

2 more days .

i don't know what to say already .

i don't want to hurt anyone anymore .

i really really feel very lost .

2010-10-09T21:59:00.003+08:00

' She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've got a new job now in the unemployment line
And we don't know we got into this mess it's a gods test
Someone help us cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard '

My birthday's on the 28th of november .

I'm going to Cambodia on the 29th of november .

Returning on the 5th of december .

and on the same day ,

i'll be going to malaysia .

I need someone to take care of my guinea pig .

Please ?

He very quiet de .

somemore he so cute .

His name is mingming .

doesn't respond to that though .

unless i meow at him then he'll run .

kay that's beside the point .

he's very very quiet and scared of loud noises .

He hates being picked up and pees on your lap it you place him there for too long .

shits everywhere too .

But pleasepleaseplease ,

i love him very much because he mean a lot to me (Really a lot )so please take care of him well k .

anyone interested ,

text me or write on my facebook wall k .

ASAP .

thanks .

2010-10-09T21:36:00.003+08:00

550th

tired .

really really very tired already .

2010-10-08T20:09:00.004+08:00

549th day .

Supsup .

today was fine .

went to Ngee Ann to study with Jermaine after paper .

had fun yeah ,

Good times .

i've got a lot to say .

but on second thoughts ,

maybe not .

it'll pass .

I want to get a tan .

HAHEHO .

okay bai .

3 more days .

2010-10-07T13:30:00.003+08:00

without you - 2pm .

this song reminds me of what i've done .

别想了。

可能就会开心一点。

后悔没告诉你你对我多重要。

后悔也来不及。

为什么你不开心的时候我感觉得到。

为什么你开心的时候我却感觉不到。

daddy says i should use my sixth sense properly .

He says it's a gift .

i don't think so .

it's making my view of the world very screwed .

it's making me think that everything's okay .

Why should i be able to know the future .

i don't want to .

'cause i always know all the things i don't want to know .

I hate dreaming .

I hate day dreaming .

I hate thinking .

I wish i didn't have this gift ..

mum doesn't quite agree .

guess she doesn't believe me that i know what's gonna happen .

i do .

i really do .

2010-10-07T12:50:00.004+08:00

See that strandSSSSSSSSSS of hair ?

HEHE .

548th day.

Today's paper's SS .

Hmm ,

I don't take amaths so i left school at 10.30 .

There're probably finishing off their last question right now .

I was supposed to be studying last night .

HEH .

This is how my sister looks like .

In case you don't know .

I think we look very different .

Hehe .

i'm a teenager .

What can you expect ?

Be patient with me .

I'll grow out of it .

4 days .

2010-10-06T17:52:00.002+08:00

Just A Dream - Nelly

i wanted to post something .

but my internet screwed .

then subsequently i forgot what i wanted to post .

maybe it's not that important yeah .

2010-10-06T14:24:00.005+08:00

547th day

HELLO

CHEMISTRY PAPER WAS ZZZ .

But bio was good .

anyhooo ,

i'm very tired .

still very tired .

zzz .

tomorrow SS .

Friday Core History and EMaths .

Life is good .

my hair's damn overgrown already but i can't cut it .

GRRRRRRRRRRR .

and i dont want to pin it up .

rather ,

it can't be .

SO MESSY ,

LOOK LIKE LION .

Wah damn ,

idk what to do with my hair already .

I'm very hungry today .

I will eat an elephant .

KTHXBAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

To look good is not everything .

Please have some self respect .

5days

Time flies .

2010-10-05T17:02:00.003+08:00

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2010-10-05T16:47:00.002+08:00

546th day .

Today i very tired .

nausea + headache + fatigue .

NEVERMIND .

things will get better !

today ,

the microphone spoil .

but haha ,

great start to a day ,

in my point of view .

uhm ,

tomorrow combine science paper .

uhm ..

no confidence .

But nevermind ah ,

just do my best .

Hehe , in case you all don't know yet ,

i removed my braces yesterday .

oh okay i think you all know le .

Feels very weird ley .

like the teeth so straight , like fake one .

LIKE DENTURES !

WORST .

hahahas .

okay ,

i very tired .

i want vomit already .

baibai .

6 days .

shucks .

2010-10-04T20:33:00.002+08:00

545th day .

Erase Me - Kid Cudi ft. Kanye West

HARLOW .

Today ,
i reported late for morning duty .
Gyan scold me ):
BUT NEVERMIND .
it's my fault mah .
SO YEAH ,
I SHALL WAKE UP EXTRA EARLY TOMORROW .
I PROMISE .

Hmm ,
Did the pledge again .
Damn ,
i always screw up when i do the pledge in the G.O .
Always too fast .
:/
But then again ,
NEVERMIND !
Grace you can de ! JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU !
LUL .

English paper one .
I THOUGHT THE PAPER 2 HOURS .
turns out , 1 hour 45 mins .
I used 1 hour on compo .
Left 45 mins for letter writing .
Panicked ,
SO I BET I WILL FAIL MY LETTER WRITING THIS TIME .
BUT NEVERMIND .
PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT RIGHT !

Paper 2 was fine .

chionged home to change then went for dental appointment .
Removed my braces .
was reminded of a lot a lot of things .
so yeah ,
was kinda upset yeah .
felt really sad / empty .

HMM ,
thaz about it for today .

i realised ,
everytime i'm upset ,
i'll eat .
then i'll sleep .

7 days .

as long as you're happy .

2010-10-03T22:31:00.001+08:00

alright ,

english paper tomorrow.
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU I CAN DO IT !

- faints -

2010-10-03T18:14:00.002+08:00

543rd day .

September - Daughtry

lul dunno why now a days so many things happen i feel so numb .

feel very sedated .

8 days .

2010-10-02T14:48:00.002+08:00

BTW ,

i think i'll put on a lot of weight soon

HAHA .

i mean everytime i'm sad / stress i'll go buy food and eat

(after school)

and then after like 1 month ,

it became a habit .

Now i can't kick the habit

and recently i realised that i've been eating more and more

someone all the unhealthy food .

so don't chua sai if you see a fat ass called Grace next time okay ?

i need some self control instilled .

p/s , mum said that i can drink alcohol .

i'll hold her for her word man .

2010-10-02T13:59:00.005+08:00

541th day

When I'm Gone - Eminem

Just back from studying at Mos Burger with An Jiang .

Damn ,

my maths is really damn ..

nothing to say .

saw dickie and minchee ,

they were studying too .

LOL damn ,

i feel like puking again .

-.-

whattt .

OH BTW ,

my birthday's fast approaching

I mean like in ..

1 month plussssssss ?

Hahaha ,

i'm still damn excited .

but it won't be the same as last year .

hopefully this year will be good ..

okay yeah .

8 more days .

imma pick the world up and drop it on your f***ing head .

standalone .

2010-10-01T19:46:00.004+08:00

I don't know who to trust anymore .

Standalone .

Sometimes we never learn .

we've got to fall hard enough to realize our mistakes .

And have someone enough important to us for us to bother to change .

2010-10-01T19:46:00.003+08:00

I don't know who to trust anymore .

Standalone .

Sometimes we never learn .

we've got to fall hard enough to realize our mistakes .

And have someone enough important to us for us to bother to change .

2010-10-01T19:46:00.001+08:00

I don't know who to trust anymore .

trust no man , fear no bitch .

Standalone .

2010-10-01T14:19:00.001+08:00

540th day

No Love - Eminem Ft. Lil Wayne

you could keep knocking but you won't knock me down .

Today's exam was okay .

imma gonna pass my maths this time no matter what .

8 more days .

2010-09-30T21:23:00.002+08:00

539th day

Pink - Who Knew

I'm very happy today because i realised that graduation is NOT tomorrow .
It's in 9 days .
I'm veryveryvery happy .

9 days .

2010-09-29T17:06:00.001+08:00

B2ST - Take Care Of My Girlfriend

i hate the feeling when i'm trying to be happy
and then that sad sad feeling comes back .

Fake a smile ,
like a clown .

baby you're the best i ever had .

2010-09-29T16:52:00.002+08:00

539th day .

Tears In Heaven - Eric Clapton

WHO LET THE DOGS OUT .

My mother doesn't allow me to listen to electro pop anymore .

SO YEAH .

WHO LET THE DOGS OUT ~

Oh did i mention ,

i'm not allowed to keep short hair anymore .

Hahaha ,

oh well ,

perhaps when i graduate then .

'cause i know ,

i don't belong , here in heaven .

2 days to graduation .

2010-09-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

538th day

Love Me - Collin Raye

i'm not sure if i'll be able to continue to post as frequently for these few days/weeks .
uhmm .
i'll post as frequently as possible .

Frankly ,
this time round ,
i don't regret anything .
at least i tried .
it's better than me living with the regret that i didn't bother to try .
Hopefully ,
as time passes ,
all will be well .

3 days to graduation .

2010-09-27T19:22:00.003+08:00

537th day

Kay ,
i've thought it through and i've decided to blog even though my whole day's damn screwed .

alright ,
i did On The Dot duty today .
which basically means i stop students from returning to their classes .
so yeah ,
i've to wait for my cue before i'm able to proceed .
so i stood at a side .
Yu Xuan came over and told me ,
' heyy , you look like a flower pot . '
Hahaha .

alright ,
everything else was damn screwed so no mention of it .

Oh yes , there's something good about today .
I scored 30/50 for my bao zhang bao dao .
may not seem much for you guys .
But considering the fact that my Chinese is improving ,
i'm really glad .
- three cheers for Grace -

I really wanted to text you about whether or not you're still mad at me .
But i chicken out all the time .
I guess you're still mad .
I'm sorry .
either ways ,
i just want you to know that i'm terribly sorry and goodluck for you 'O' levels .
don't worry ,
your name will appear on the screen come the day when you guys get your results .
You won't need a tissue paper .
All the best ,
JTFY .

4 days to graduation .

2010-09-27T19:04:00.001+08:00

For The First Time - The Script

Today hadn't been a good day .
So yeah .
yeah .

kthxbai .

2010-09-26T22:23:00.004+08:00

Erase Me - Kid Cudi ft. Kanye West

My phone's buzzing non-stop ,

i'm getting really irritated .

-.- !

okay whatever .

I can't understand why when something's gonna crash on someone in the movies ,

the person just stands there like

then their friend runs over and pushes them away .

scenario one ,

your friend / lover / person of opposite sex runs over and holds you in their arms and

then the both of you tumbles on a grassy patch / hard floor together

then you two look at each other and smile and some crap romantic moment starts .

scenario two ,

you are so stupid ,

you stand there with your mouth like that ,

and then your friend pushes you away .

AND THEN YOUR FRIEND DIES .

I MEAN YEAH SCENARIO TWO IS MORE CONVINCING .

BUT WHO CARES .

why do actors / cartoon characters spend like 3 seconds

with their mouth agape .

Seriously ,

when some gigagantic thing is gonna crash on / at you ,

ANIMAL INSTINCT IN TO RUN .

JEEZ .

and know what ?

you spend 3 secs mouth agape ,

your friend takes like prolly 1.5 seconds to push you to perhaps 50 meters away if something's gonna crash on you .

or perhaps you two spend 1.5 seconds twirling around on the road and then land on your butt .

1.5 seconds is not enough to get to safety .

and you could have spent your time better than opening your mouth wide .

RUN DAMNIT RUN .

okay .

too much Ben 10 and Charlie's Angels .

remind me to stop watching too much tv .

haha .

I've been doing my art exam prep work .

tell ya ,

it's a pain in the A** .

think i'll turn in soon .

2010-09-26T14:53:00.005+08:00

me , at 3 .

my bro and i .

Sorry for the poor quality .

Dad ,

i'm on his lap ,

my brother and my sister .

One part of the Peng Family .

(maternal side)

My maternal side Second Aunt with my cousin , 99korkor .

My cousin , YanRong at 4 or 5 ?

see that cigg ?

HAHA .

She's damn cool i tell ya .

Maternal Side Second uncle's family .

99korkor (left)

and BaoBaokorkor (right)

one so handsome , one so cute .

hehe .

- kampong days -

Rare photo .

the maiden on the extreme left's wearing the red dress' my mum .

not sure who's she carrying .

the second last lady on the right side's my aunt .

she's a beauty ain't see ?

(Y) so cute .

Caleb ,

a few months old .

I like this picture pretty damn much because i looked like that when i was her age .

Maybe she'll grow up to look like me ?

Who knows .

Charis at 2 .

Charis .

When she was one , (:

HAHA ,

she's damn adorable .

Admit it .

536th day .

done with the photo spam .

Hahaha ,

uhmmm .

i'm gonna do my art now .

so jyeah ,

i always hated it when you let go of my hand .

no matter how tight they hold my hand ,

i'd always let go .

kthxbai .

2010-09-25T18:36:00.005+08:00

One In A Million - Ne-Yo

535th day .

My Niece ,
Charis

Her Younger Brother ,
Caleb .

Awww , they're cute right ?

My mum used to stay in the kampong at the backdrop .
Just found this photo today .

shall post more another day .

hmmmmmmmmmmmm ,
i should really be studying now .
mehhh .
TGISaturday .

you'll tell me that you've forgiven me ,
won't you ?
Or you haven't forgiven me ?
you're leaving .
you're leaving soon ..

i'm tryna show you that i've changed .
but everytime i try to show you ,
i do something wrong again
and i'll be afraid that you're gonna hear of it and be mad at me .
i kept living like that and now you're leaving .
i hate myself .

others want time to pass as quickly as possible .
i just want the whole of next week to pass as slowly as possible .

5 days .

2010-09-24T21:20:00.002+08:00

524th day .

Just back from pre-Cambodia meeting .

Brought back stuff for the orphans .

yeah .

i just need some time alone ..

thanks .

5 more days to graduation .

2010-09-23T19:31:00.002+08:00

523th day of waiting .

Art exam's gonna be cool .

Topic's ' Growth ' .

We'll have to use Hands , Face and Flowers for this topic .

Hopefully i'll do well yeah ?

Alright ,

sorry for not posting yesterday .

and for all the short posts .

Hahaha ,

but thing is ,

who reads these anyway .

o.o

school was just well ..

school .

Went to Cecilia's house with her to get her stuff and headed back to school .

Got ourselves Bubble Tea on the way .

Went to the canteen to talk to Ben and Fitri while she went for English Remedial class .

Then went for Biology Lesson in the AVA room .

which meant we had free access to the piano .

Daniel step one pro only ,

anyhow press some button then when the song's playing ,

pretend to use only one hand to play .

But the whole affair was darn hilarious .

Then the pro stepped up .

SUNG SANG WOO ~

I tell you ,

that guy is IMBA .

The moment he played ,

i was mesmerized .

Seriously .

not trying to exaggerate .

He played as if it was such an easy piece .

He had such control over everything .

It was utterly mesmerizing .

Alright ,

then went home .

Doing art prep work now .

It's scary that you're leaving soon .

It's just so damn scary .

6 more school days to graduation .

i still hope that you'll forgive me .

that's all i want .

2010-09-21T17:46:00.003+08:00

bu gou cheng shou - By2

dunno why now a days very moody .

haha .

8 days to graduation ..

gracie's

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